I Thought I Knew It All

I thought, this week, I would write about heart ache. It's not the required topic nor is it a favorite subject for most but sometimes writing just makes things better. There are times in our lives when things don't go as planned. When the water boils out of the pan. When the safety pin isn't long enough. When the car runs out of gas. When your heart gets broken. Everyone tells you how to deal with failure but no one ever tells you how much it will break you. No one tells you how one little sentence can tear you to pieces. I believe myself to be strong but sometimes I can't even stand tall. Under the weight of the world, I am slowly being crushed. I thought I knew so much, it turns out I knew too little. I wish I could understand why it hurt so much, why I can't seem to brush it off like the other little things in life. But I know there is better waiting for me. Who knows where it lies, but it is out there, just for me. It is perfect and real and worthy of my life. Heart ache seems to last a life time. A second turns into hours, a day into years. But sometimes one must be defeated to become the hero. Don't choose a battle that will only kill you. Choose a defeat that will raise you from the dust. I thought I knew it all. Well, I didn't.